Only God Knows

When things don't seem to be going right,
look to God for guidence and the
patience you need to endure the trial.

-Precious Moments painting by Bailey Muller

“Leave all your anxieties and worries with Him because He cares for you.”       – 1 Peter 5:7 ClearWord

               

                It was last year and I had gotten the letter I was anticipating; my acceptance into Advance Placement American History. I didn’t really have a particular predilection for history, but an AP class would look superior on my report card and to different colleges who would be considering my application in the future. I had constantly strived to challenge myself so this was seemingly the course for me. As I was handed the letter, my teacher briefly stated the essay that was mandatory to write in order to be enrolled...but I shrugged it off thinking nothing of it.

            Weeks passed and I was once again reminded that the essay date was quickly approaching. I made a mental note to write it on my calendar and make sure I didn’t miss it. When I got home and looked to see when I would have to write the paper, I was quick to realize that it fell on a weekend, and not just any day...but the Sabbath. Now I had a dilemma. I could take it on God’s set day of rest or not show up and miss the great opportunity that was within reach. My mind kept going over the possible outcomes of each road and then, I finally made the decision that I was going to take the test; after all, it’s not like I would be doing anything for my enjoyment...actually, I was pretty sure it would be very UNenjoyable. I figured it would be easier to just ask God for forgiveness than it would be to ask acceptance without the obligatory essay. (We should NEVER have this frame of mind. God expects us to follow His word, especially Sabbath. When we figure we can do what we want and play the “innocent” game later...God can’t truly forgive us.)

            Friday night, I kept recalling different texts that acknowledged God’s children as those who keep His Sabbath day holy and the more I thought about it, the greater guilt I felt of my previous mind-set. While lying in bed, I played with the various ways God could work it out if I didn’t take the essay...he could allow me to take it another day, perhaps not require me to write it at all, or MAYBE he was going to send me to Fountainview like I had been praying so fervently for...perhaps THAT’S why it was scheduled for Sabbath, because if I didn’t take it, it wouldn’t matter with me attending a different school. I figured God would work it out one of those ways, so I grudgingly shrugged off the idea and remained home that Sabbath afternoon rather than heading off to my school.

            Before school commenced this year, I knew that my attending Fountainview was out of the picture. There had been certain complications that prevented my presence, so what was God thinking when He stirred in my heart not to go take my essay!? Why didn’t He work something out? Did He not realize how important this was to me? I began school, yet longed to be in my AP class I had primarily been planning on participating in. As my school year has been progressing, however, my friend shares with me daily the struggles of the class. 50 note cards a week (full front and back) and a huge test on it all with an average of 3 people per class that receive the highest mark of 80% (most students actually failing). Looking at it now, I am so thankful that, even though I didn’t get to go to Fountainview like I had envisioned or be present in the class, God kept me from taking this difficult course.

            Sometimes the situations we are in don’t seem to be heading in the direction we had planned. If everything seems to be falling apart before your very eyes, take all your anxieties, stresses, and worries away and set them before your Heavenly Father. We may not see the positive side right away (like me, where it took over a year), and we may never see why specific circumstances fall into place, but when we get to heaven and see how perfectly God planned our lives, we will praise Him even MORE. Patiently endure your trials, and place your hope and trust in Him. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst, and pray for God’s will.